Here I am again, I have attempted to go to sleep twice now. I am very tired and would like to sleep, but when I lay down to do so I can not get comfortable. My feet burn, and then my legs ache, my left arm gets tingly, and starts to ache. Then my hands hurt, and my right arm get tingly and achy. Then I have to get up and go to the bath room.
So I decided to get some cherry's, but I didn't put on my glasses. But even without my glasses I found some with mold on them, so my granddaughter had to help me go through the to pick out the moldy ones. I thanked her and told her that I had been told once that cherry's helped with pain, but I didn't think moldy ones would. She thought the whole thing was funny. But I reassured her that while I was going to eat the cherry's I was also going to take a pain pill, maybe the two of them would help.
The arthritis in my right hand is getting a lot worse, my hand hurts all of the time now and it is hard to hold on to things. I guess I am going to have to learn to be more left handed. It pains me I used to have such nice hands, and now my right hand is twisted and not very nice. The left is still fairly straight, but still not very strong anymore.
The woes of getting old. I wish I felt like I look. Last time I was in the hospital the nurses thought I was only 40. I told them thanks but I'm glad that I'm not, because at 40 I was very healthy, and that I would feel really bad if I had all of this going on at that age. It makes me sad that my poor daughter is only in her 40's and has already started having many of the same problems that I have now. At least I
was in my mid 50's before I started having so many problems.
I am so very thankful that I was healthy enough to be there and to take care of Dennis when he needed me. It would have been so hard on him if I had gotten ill while he was still here. It was hard enough on him to have to suffer through all of the things that he faced, with me there to support and care for him. But he always worried about me and if I got sick or he thought I was hurt or sick it was very hard for him to handle. I remember when I had my hysterectomy, they told me later that if I moaned he would be demanding they give me pain medication. If Doctor Moore had not happened by and the nurses got him to explain to Dennis that I had to wake up and it was ok for me to have some pain, they didn't know what would have happened. He just didn't want me to ever have any kind of pain.
I really love that man, and I sure do miss him. But I am so glad that he is no longer in pain and that soon he will be awaken by Jesus to a world where there is no pain, and will never have to suffer nor see anyone else suffer or die again. What a grand hope we have. What love Jehovah showed for his creation to give up his only begotten son for us. What love Jesus showed to accept a human body and give up living with his Father, knowing the pain and suffering he would go through for us. He even knew that so many would not accept him as Jehovah's son, and yet he even loved them enough to give his perfect life for them as well.
I thank Jehovah every day for allowing me to know him and to serve him as best as I can. I thank him also for the example his son gave us, and the love they both showed and continue to show.
Well I have done the italics thing again and have no idea how to undo it. I think I will try again to sleep.
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