being older

Here I am at 62 years old and while I know I have a lot of health issues it really upsets me to know that I am not trusted to be on my own for a few days.  While I know that I can not go to DL because of these issues.  I also know that I am capable of being on my own for a few days.  I know how to use the phone and can call 911 if I need to.  I have driven all over the US by myself more than once.  I have been by my self at home on many occasions for more than a few days.  I have worked many hours and taken care of my husband, children, animals, and taken care of the house as well.  But now I am not to trusted to take care of myself, the animals, and house for a few days.  Then on top of this my daughter informs me that if I was not able to live with them I would be in an assisted living situation.  It really makes me feel extremely sad, angry, depressed, and worthless.

It's suddenly I have no rights because I have health issues.  I have common sense and know what to do to keep myself safe as well as others.  I have a drivers licence but do not drive because on my macular degeneration, and the medication that I take.  I feed all the animals daily for the most part, do yard work, house work, and other things on my own.  I do have to take a lot of breaks but I am able to do most of them daily.  I also make my breakfast, lunch (most of the time), and cook dinner when I am able.

It makes me wonder what they think of me.  I have been a very independent person most of my life.  I never ask for help if I couldn't do something it would eventually figure out a way to get it done.  I have worked since I was 14.  I have cleaned homes, offices, parking lots, and yards.  I have babysat kids and animals.  I have worked on the docks cracking crabs, worded in the field cutting grapes.  I went to school to become a secretary, and did great.  I worked for the phone company and was the fastest directory assist operator and made some training tapes for them.  I worked in a Nursing home as a Nursing assistant, and then went to LPN school and worked cleaning houses, and doing private duty, as well as taking care of the house and children.  Then I went on to become and RN and worked my way through all of that.

I guess I need to go to sleep right now, but I know that I am still capable of caring for myself, the animals, and the house for a few days on my own..